Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Reflections

I realized today that I haven't posted anything in a while.. maybe because things have been going so well.  But, it's in the good times that we tend to forget that God wants our praises too.  And, OH.. I have sooo much to praise Him for.  Mykenzie.. yes, I spelled it that way on purpose :-).. has just blossomed.  She is rolling all over the floor, and holding herself up and saying Mama!!  And Marcus is standing and taking steps, when he doesn't think about it.. LOL!  My children amaze me daily! 
I am currently in the process of planning their 1st birthday party and I am having sooo much fun!!  I am hoping for a good turnout :-)  As promised, All of her UAB friends know about it and will have a formal invitation in the mail in a few weeks.. as well as everyone here at home! 
We actually will be in Birmingham in about a month to see her immunologist.  And we will stop by the CICU and see everyone... they won't believe how she's grown!  Oh.. and my little man will be going with us.. FINALLY a stay in Birmingham where he can go with us!!!! 
It will be nice to walk in as a family, happy and healthy and smiling..  and to be able to hug the people who made that day possible.  I write that sentance with tear filled eyes.  You will never know what a gift you gave us.  She is such a precious child.  Her smile will melt your heart, and you smile with her.  God's plan for her has got to be big.. because I swear I can see Hin in her. 
So, I will leave you with a song that sums up my life since June 4, 2010..

No Matter What- Kerrie Roberts

I’m running back to your promises one more time, Lord that’s all I can hold on to, I gotta say this has taken me by surprise, but nothing surprises you. Before a heartache can ever touch my life, it has to go through Your hands, and even though I, keep asking why, I keep asking why,

No matter what, I’m gonna love You, no matter what I’m gonna need You, I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain but if not,if not, I’ll trust you, no matter what, no matter what.

When I’m stuck in this nothing-ness by myself, I’m just sitting in silence, there’s no way I can make it without Your help, I wont even try it. I know You have Your reasons for everything, so I will keep believing, whatever I might be feeling, God you are my hope, and you'll be my strength,

No matter what, I’m gonna love You, no matter what I’m gonna need You, I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain but if not, if not, I’ll trust you, no matter what, no matter what.

Anything I don’t have You can give it to me, but it’s ok if You don’t, I’m not here for those things, the touch of Your love is enough on its own, no matter what I still love You and I’m gonna need You

No matter what I’m gonna still love you, no matter what I’m gonna need you, I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain but if not, if not, I’ll trust You, I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain, but if not, if not, I’ll trust you, no matter what no matter what no matter no matter what